TODAY ...

I'm going to Kuching. Probably stay for a week max. Need to do long-delayed work on my thesis, break away from the mundane stuffs and seek peace within me...

Hope to catch up with friends and spend some time with my two good friends who'll be leaving for KK next Tuesday.

GMB is in Kuching, but I doubt I will be able to watch them in action *sigh* but I do hope I will be able to go to Mt. Singai for my personal retreat...

p.s: 4th of August maybe'll stay at Damai Lagoon for the weekend. While Dad's busy with the AGM, I'll enjoy the beach! the rainforest!the river! Yay! [ unless Mom forced me to be driver bring all the aunties go jalan2 (read: boring shopping trip) *sigh* :-( ]

Rest in Peace aunty Wasling

Last night I recieved a shocking and sad news. My godbrother, Khong, lost his mother to cancer two weeks ago. I've had the opportunity to be with his mother last year while she was undergoing cancer treatment and I really admire her cheerfulness despite the circumstances. Everytime I visited her, she's always smiling and talkative. She's always kept the positive spirit until the end of the battle.

Aunty Wasling,
I really admire your courage and cheerful spirit in times of adversity.
I really admire you for raising four good and filial sons alone.
I pray that your soul will be resting in God's embrace forever.

Dear friends,

I am having a major bad time now which makes blogging so difficult at the moment. There's an awful mess that I am trying to sort now in my life. When things have been sorted out I will, God willing, return to blogging actively again. Until then, silence. I do, however, visit the blogs I enjoy but sadly, I am in no shape to talk about things right now. Pray that all the cobwebs in my life could be cleared.

Thanks

Happy Gawai n Everything in between

This is just a short post since everyone is asking me to update.

(SEE... I'm updating now)

everything that happened the last few centuries (days, months, whatever):

arguments
anger
fun
frustration
communication breakdown
birth
death,death,death
travel
shopping
busy
work
work
test
self-inflicted accidents
pain


and NO, didn't have Gawai. I spent my Gawai 'nyenggai antu'.
Only visited Grace n Fred today.

That's it till now :)

p.s: Sorry, my mood ran out with my inspiration. Haven't return yet.

QUESTIONS

Lately, I've been thinking about life in general. I've encountered lots of interesting stuff. I've moved further in this journey of self discovery and as to knowing the purpose of my life. Am I destined for great things, or am I forever doomed to being stuck in a dreary life. To be the PERSON or to be the doormat.

Am I happy?
Yes, but.
It's always a YES, BUT answer. I am happy, but not content.

Why am I not content?
I don't know. I'm still trying to figure it out.

Everyone wants a great career, earn major moolahs and have the jetset lifestyle most would envy. But what if, the small voice in me asks, what if when you're there, after all the things you do to get there, you realize that you don't really want this? That all you wanted is something simpler. Something that you actually enjoy doing.

But what? I don't know.

If you know, tell me.

CATS & MUM (Last time, u won't hear this in the same sentence)

I don't know what got to my mum now. She used to HATE cats. She used to send my cats flying whenever the poor creature enter her room or *gasp* God forbid, make itself comfy on her bed. But now... She takes another kitten into the house. She did raised our (whole family's) eyebrow when she first brought a kitten she named Pussie. That's okay, but getting two kittens in a row??!!! My my... She even manja-manja the cats now.
(By the way, she refuses to be acknowledged as the owner of the kittens. Tak nak mengaku. If we insist, she'll give away the kittens. Sanggup tu...)

Maybe this starts when I brought my fat cat, Emperor Kechik, last year. Dad and her adores Kechik. Soon, Dad owns another kitten I took from Kuching, a black with white spots we named Chomot (This cat we bagi nama elok2 she tak mau. When my Mum called her Chomot she quickly responded)

So now we owned FOUR cats (and Mum already thinks of picking up another. Noooooo... cause I want to take one from Kuching. A cute one with grey eyes. But to own four, five or six cats???? Susah Oooo. Because my cats don't go outdoors. Got one 'samseng' cat always terrorize the others cats and last time my cat, Chimi, was kidnapped (catnapped). Also it will be crowded and I will be bankrupt just buying the catfood :(

My mum's darling, Pussie, she'll scratch my mum's chair when mum's not around. When Mum's there, she'l sit demurely and lick herself clean. Pandai mengampu punya kucing. She cute tho'. Cute and silly. Hahaha. (But don't tell Mum I said that :p )