I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TOPIC THIS IS SUPPOSED TO HAVE...now there!

Getting this comment from her was something surprising. Hmm... To even read the word 'me' and 'pretty' within the same sentence, was something i have never imagined ever being used to describe me. Garang, serious,brutal...that I know lah. But to be described as pretty? WAH!!! sweet face some more...
Thanks... You certainly made my day :-)

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Actually before I posted my photo here, I was having some internal debate going on in my head. Before, I was reluctant to do so since I want to guard my real identity. Ya lah, here is where I pour out my dissatisfaction, my rebellious voice that (i know) will inavoidably bruise some people's ego and some of those posts are even 'mean hits below the waist' (yeah, I admit). So just imagine the consequences of some of those people's reaction if they ever read about it (or them!). And so, I separate into two: the real me and the mysterious blog 'me'. The real, seemingly boring person living in a mundane existence, and the blog me. But somehow, it seems that the clear lines (if there were any) have blurred and the two persons started to become meshed together and a new person emerged in this blog.

And the new person screams , "F***!!! I don't care if they knew. I couldn't care less".

So, I post my pic.

But then again, I can just hit that 'delete' button.

THE AFTERMATH

scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape scrape

*scrapes brain matter off the cube walls, off the meeting table, off the chairs and off Bos Kecik's hair*

Opps... My brain just exploded

Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy

Meeting with Bos Kecik 2day at 3 pm... "am really looking forward to getting my grey matter splattered in the meeting cube" *sigh*

Presentation on Strategic Management 2morow night

Assignments due...

will be organizing Training Seminar on guess what, of all topics "Parenting" *rolls eyes twice normal speed*

Uh Yeah, lunchbreak now...I'm going home for my ciggie break :-))))... Nasib baik rumah seberang jalan je...heheheheh

no idea...no idea..no idea...

*bangs head on table*

*trying to figure out what i wanted to say*

before distractions distracts the distracted mind

later

TAUBAT!!!

Taubat.... tak nak tidur lambat lagi

Taubat.... tak nak pi tgk midnite show lagi

Taubat.... tak nak keluar lambat lagi

Taubat

Taubat

Taubat....

unless the movie is worth the lack of sleep...

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Watched Constantine last nite.

Just finished class, when i received SMS from my cousin

"Get ready. 10.45 pm pick u up"

Huh???

Then Cousin came with Tintin, Galah and PP (Permanently Palau).

Got into the car and asked...

"Where are we going ah?"

"Go tengok movie la... Constantine. I buy tickets for u already. I belanja."

"Oh..."

*yawn*yawn*

"U're working tomorrow right?aiyo, jgn tidur inside cinema ler...waste my ticket je nanti"

"Ok...*yawn* will not *yawn* fall asleep"

*yawn*

Arrived at the cinema (after experiencing Tintin's driving skill that could put the Van Sewa drivers to shame and losing a few vertebrae in the process). Lounged around and masuk cinema.

I didn't sleep. I couldn't. The movie is like ... WOW!!!

CONSTANTINE : Hell wants him. Heaven won't take him. Earth needs him.

John Constantine has been to hell and back.

Born with a gift he didn’t want, the ability to clearly recognize the half-breed angels and demons that walk the earth in human skin, Constantine (KEANU REEVES) was driven to take his own life to escape the tormenting clarity of his vision. But he failed.

Resuscitated against his will, he found himself cast back into the land of the living. Now, marked as an attempted suicide with a temporary lease on life, he patrols the earthly border between heaven and hell, hoping in vain to earn his way to salvation by sending the devil’s foot soldiers back to the depths.

But Constantine is no saint. Disillusioned by the world around him and at odds with the one beyond, he’s a hard-drinking, hard-living bitter hero who scorns the very idea of heroism. Constantine will fight to save your soul but he doesn’t want your admiration or your thanks – and certainly not your sympathy.

All he wants is a reprieve.

When a desperate but skeptical police detective (RACHEL WEISZ as Angela Dodson) enlists his help in solving the mysterious death of her beloved twin sister (also played by Weisz), their investigation takes them through the world of demons and angels that exists just beneath the landscape of contemporary Los Angeles. Caught in a catastrophic series of otherworldly events, the two become inextricably involved and seek to find their own peace at whatever cost.

~~synopsis from official website.

I liked the sound effects, the CGI is good... I don't know bout it's comic version Hellblazer so I wouldn't know much about the story... Check it here or visit the Official site

and oh yeah, this movie is like one giant anti smoking ad.watch it.. you'll know what i mean...

You may hate it, you may love it... My verdict a fun, exciting movie. Worth sacrificing my sleep for.

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Argh...I'm sleepy.

SUMMARY

Went back for CNY holidays. Back to small lil' B-town...Nothing much have changed (come to think of it, there's hardly ever changes happening in B-town. Just a small idyllic living in a slow paced life...which is why i get depressed when I'm there and why Dad remedied the situation by getting Internet connection at home. It's just a simple DU connection, but it'll do...)

The journey back to B-town is EXTREMELY long and i was so tired. Took the 1 pm bus from Kch and s'possed to arrive in S'kei at 7 pm. The bus rosak in the middle of the journey and have to wait for the next bus which is 2 hours later. Finally arrived in S'kei at 10pm++. *sigh* tired... Hit the bed..zzzzZZZZZZZ

Day 1: Slept till late (8am+), a luxury I can't afford ever since started working. Breakfast with family, mum made,tumpi'- a dish made frm 'lemantak'. Jadi driver. Chef.read.sleep(again)...hog the PC at home.

Day 2:Repeat day 1 activities. rearranged the furnitures in my bedroom (preparations, preparations)...so dead tired but worth it since i rasa berat hati to leave my room.Too cantik ma...

Day 3: back to Kch.

Today: Back to work.Bos too busy today. Gave me instruction to continue what I've been doing (does this mean keep on meng'ular'??)...Go figure...hehehhe

Turning One

Come 26th February, Anakapai's blog, this portal I call home will mark it's 1st year of existence. I accidentally came upon blogging when I stumbled into a friend's blog. Reading her post made me realize that there's another existence in the cyberworld. where anyone can be someone...

where i can be...

...silly
...vain
...selfish
...sarcastically honest
...temperamental
...show the dark side of me
...self-indulged
...show my narcisstic streak ( I LOVE MYSELF TOO DAMN MUCH!)

when in real life people see me as...
...serious
...funny
...no nonsense type of person
...happy
...

you see, what people see when they meet me in the real life may not be me at all. I wear masks.Masks that shield you from seeing the real me.The masks are only removed when I'm with my closest friends..Friends who've proven themselves worthy to see the REAL me...

I wear masks that suits the occasions. A smile may not be a smile...life is like an ongoing masquerade ball...masks to let the world see us the way they want to see us...

In my blog, I can be whatever I am.Speak the truth, whatever's in my mind, without having to filter/dilute the truth. For in real world, feelings are fragile and I'd hate to hurt anyone cause life ain't got any "undo" button...

The blog also came as a therapy for me. I was on the mend from a disastrous relationship. I was feeling rather low due to being financially dependent after earning my own moolah to nada...I was reconstructing my dignity, rediscovering myself and learning to put myself first, above all things (except God & Family, that is)... I've blogged about the stress that I faced, studies, psychotic guys who can't get a clue, friends... writing it all became a soul-mending session, you know, when you pour out all the jumbled contents in your mind and you sort it out...Introspectively analyzing myself...and I came to know myself better...

and I met some new friends, fellow bloggers who shared about life and everything in between...I met wonderful people like Him, Her, and many others who somehow touched me in ways I couldn't explain. To you dear friends, thank you...

Here's to wishing another year of In Anakapai's Eyes... *cheers*

HELLO & PICASA my f00t!!!

downloaded n installed picasa...read the user guide...done what is spossed to be done...and...no pics...nil...nada...takde....nadai!!!

all I get is... "uploading image, this may take seconds". seconds? ikut sistem planet mana??? bukan seconds, dah hours dah. but hey, still no pictures.. st00000pid picasa n hello.anyone got it figured, pls tell me what is wrong...

OWH!!!OWH!!OWH!!!

D**n whateverthatiscausingthisbloodytummyache!!!!!

Today boss cuti and expecting having leisurely day in ofis but whyohwhy must get this tummyache...

I'm going home :( [actually :) ]

Dung dung dung chang...

Happy Chinese New Year everyone,
May the year of the Rooster brings you luck and prosperity.
I hope mine brings with it loads of cash for me...Hahaha

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I'll be going back for CNY holidays.

Need to perform the usual stuffs...

e.g.: kumpul ang pow mar.nanti dah tak leh kumpul lagi plak kalo dah kawen...mwahahahaha

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THE PRAYER - Josh Groban (with Charlotte Church)

I pray you'll be our eyes

And watch us where we go

And help us to be wise

In times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer

As we go our way

Lead us to a place

Guide us with your Grace

To a place where we'll be safe

La luce che to dai (The light that you give us)

I pray we'll find your light

Nel cuore resterò (Will stay in our hearts)

And hold it in our hearts

A ricordarchi che (Reminding us)

When stars go out each night

L'eterna stella sei (That in my prayer)

Nella mia preghiera (You are an everlasting star)

Let this be our prayer

Quanta fede c'è (There's so much faith)

When shadows fill our day

Lead us to a place

Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe

Sognamo un mondo senza più violenza (We dream of world with no more violence)

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza ( A world of justice and hope)

Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino (Grasp your neighbors hand)

Simbolo di pace e di fraternità (As a symbol of peace and brotherhood)

La forza che ci dai (The strength that you give us)

We ask that life be kind

E'il desiderio che (Is the wish)

And watch us from above

Ognuno trovi amore (That everyone may find love)

We hope each soul will find

Intorno e dentro a sé (In and around himself)

Another soul to love

Let this be our prayer

Just like every child

Needs to find a place,

Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe

E la fede che (And the faith that)

Hai acceso in noi (You've lit inside us)

Sento che ci salverà (I feel will save us )