Thoughts: Why Do I Blog?

opps.. eee...boring lah maca blok urang tu...nadai tuju bah..

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2009-08-20 9:39 AM

A comment left sometime yesterday by an anonymous visitor (using the nickname opps) on my shoutbox left me with quite a mixed reaction.

I was

Surprised: The fact that someone other than my blogger friends IS actually reading MY blog.

Peeved: The fact that the visitor took the cowardice approach of hiding behind a nickname without even an e-mail link.

Amused: The fact that MY blog bothered this person so much that he/she left a comment that he/she found reading MY blog bored the hell outta him/her.

Well, all I can say to you Mr/Ms Opps is that, I blog for myself.

I repeat, MYSELF.

I don't blog for commercial purposes and I don't aim to entertain. I just write because I find it therapeutic. A way for me to seek clarity of mind.

Watch out! I'm thinking.

When I first started this blog 5 years ago (what?! A 'bosan' blog like this can last for that long?! Die already lah you!), I was recovering from a failed relationship. This acted as a sanctuary for me where I can seek refuge and healing. Back then my readership was something like only 3 (or was it 4?) readers, yours truly included. So you see, it wasn't fame or popularity that I aim for.

I write for ME.

Then came the new visitors. I met wonderful people like Junaidix, Carneyz, Cuthess, Puteri and a few more, and from leaving comments on each other's blog, we became online friends. We shared our stories, our good/bad days and we cheered each other up. We SHARED and we CARED. From being merely online friends, I've come to know them in the real world. I became friends with bloggers like Cuthess, Grace, Puteri, Lyana, Coki, Flo, Ubek, Arthur@SuiTuaPui, and then some more (you guys know who you are). So, from being merely a place for my verbal diarrhoea, this blog has evolved into an avenue for me to meet new friends and renew old acquaintances (and even meet a few relatives along the way, like my uncle Desmond).

My blogger turned real life friends / best friends (Cuthess and Grace)

Lyana and Ms Coki who I've recently met and discovered to be as hillarious as their online persona (photo credits to Puteri)

Now, I don't know why they visit my blog: maybe they find it interesting (Good heavens! Really???) or maybe it's just something like a habit. I don't know, you ask them.

But still I write for ME.

If you have bothered to read all my posts (caution though, your eyes might bleed from all that reading), you will notice that in the 5 (unbelievable?!!) years, my writing has somehow evolved. Changed. Be it good or bad, I don't know. I can't kiss my own ass you see. How to puji diri sendiri? Silap-silap syok sendiri pulak.

Sometimes I write about work, life, friends and the occassional rants. I write about everything.

Because I write for ME.

I don't believe in creating a blog where I only put up posts 'copied and pasted' from other sites. A blog that aims only to entertain. And I certainly don't believe in pasting semi-naked pictures of myself to accompany my posts. Yeah, I know that it might gain me more visitors and boosts the readership but for what? It's not the quantity that matters, but quality. Even if I get a lot of readers but they don't give a hoot as to what I am writing, I'd trade the numbers any time for a few readers who really cared enough to find the story behind the writings. To know who I am instead of just another blog to hop in and out of.

They've been reading my 'crappy blog' for years

Because I blog for ME.

And guess what?

It will continue.

p/s:
Now I have no idea whether Mr/Ms Opps will read/is reading this post but anyway, thanks to him/her, I'm inspired to share my thoughts on blogging.
Or maybe he/she won't read it.
Maybe my 'blok' is boring because I wrote in English. Dang that!

Poem: Exam Blues

Original image from here

These numbers are spinning
My brain is shrinking
Cold sweat breaking
I’m not faking
I did some reading
Before coming
But when starting
To do calculating
My brain went flying
I think I’m dying
I feel like crying
Though it’s embarrassing
I have stopped caring
Though I won’t try cheating
Teacher, teacher
I need some helping

Note: Wrote this while I was invigilating one of my classes sitting for their Add Maths paper. =)

Kapit Chronicles: Updated

Dear friends,

I've decided to update my Kapit Chronicles in my photoblog, Life Thru Anakapai's Lens

Cheers!

Video: Song of a Desperate Man *panas*

UPDATE!!!:
The guy emailed my bestie (1st one he 'tekel' last time) and asked her to keep in touch since he's 'back in d game'... Wow, within 24 hours after being 'indirectly rejected'... Now, that's FAST!!!

LOL!!!!

This must be the theme song for the loser-guy who tried to 'tekel2' my bestie. The very same guy that 'tekel' another bestie and wanted to kikis her RM!!! Luckily my friend realized his true colours and escaped. Phewwww...

Thanks to my gut feeling, it was my instinct that screams out that this could be the same guy when my friend told me about this guy trying to 'tekel' her. And after further investigation on my part (simultaneous chatting with both besties), yes, it is indeed!
Mangkuk hayun! Kau ingat dunia ini besar sangat ka until we will not find out about your skeletons?

This guy's modus operandi is easy:
Find a lady with career, preferably a professional.
Lots of sweet talk, "don't call me by my name, call me 'dear', 'sulu', etc" (no wonder sebab his real name sucks!)
Beggings and pleadings asking the lady to fly/drive up to where he is to meet him (Hello? Perempuan pergi cari kau???!!!)
Pujuk rayu ajak kawen walaupun baru2 jak kenal. The lady belum mengaku pun maok jadi girlfren... (Huh????nutcase sunggoh)
and then...
jeng jeng jeng
mula la this loser minta itu dan ini, minta the lady to loan money la etc la for him.
Ptui! Parasit sunggoh!

Dengar2 nya lah kan, this guy adalah BF (masih kah?) kepada seorang penyanyi Iban yang top itewwww... siapa? shhhhhhh... ney boleh padah...

So girls out there, be very careful of this kind of guy ah. Silap haribulan dengan you sekali dia gadai nanti...

So back to my story, my bestie memang no interest in this guy but this guy so persistent la. I told her to ignore him until he get bored and starts to seek new prey.

Announcement (over hugeass P.A. system):
"Perhatian, perhatian..kepada ibu bapa kepada anak yang desperet ini, sila tuntut anak anda di kaunter pertanyaan"...Muahahahaha

Random: Lawak Gurauan Senda

* Some jokes that a friend e-mailed to me.
Enjoy!

KEMALANGAN JALAN RAYA:

Pada suatu hari, ada sebuah kereta yang dipandu

terhuyung hayang melanggar tiang lampu dan terbalik.. Kesemua

penumpangnya yang terdiri dari seorang lelaki tua.. seorang wanita

tua.. dan dua orang anak kecil.. luka parah tak berdaya. Hanya seekor

monyet yang merupakan binatang peliharaan keluarga.. masih sihat tanpa

sedikit lukapun.

Pihak polis kebingungan

melihat kejadian itu… lalu dia memutuskan untuk menyoal saja pada si

monyet untuk memperoleh keterangan mengenai kejadian tersebut..

Polis : “Monyet.. apa yang terjadi sebenarnya?”

Si monyet kemudian merebahkan dirinya dalam keadaan terbalik beberapa kali.

Polis : “Oh…kereta terbalik beberapa kali… jadi apa yang dilakukan oleh lelaki tua itu?”

Si monyet menirukan gerakan mabuk sambil mengayakan minum arak..

Polis : “Oh…lelaki itu sedang mabuk masa memandu. Dan bagaimana pulak wanita tua itu? Anak-anak juga buat apa?”

Si monyet menirukan posisi orang tidur.. kemudian bergerak-gerak spt orang sedang bertengkar.

“Oh…okey.. saya dah faham.. wanita tua itu tidur dan anak2nya bertengkar dalam kereta.. dan kamu sendiri pula buat apa monyet?”

Dan… si monyet kemudian menirukan gaya memandu…

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Kisah 2 Hantu:

Tersebutlah kisah dua orang hantu. Diorang ni baru bejumpa lalu mereka pun berborakla untuk mengisi masa lapang kehidupan mereka sebagai hantu. Sepanjang perbualan mereka, Hantu B ni tak habis-habis menggigil. Lalu, Hantu A yang kehairanan ni pun bertanya,

"Apa pasal kau ni menggigil saja?"

"Oh..cara sia mati dulu teruk..mati dalam aisbok...sejuk!!" Jawab Hantu B sambil menggigil lagi.

"Ooo..kesian... dulu sia mati kena heart attack." Kata Hantu A ramah.

"Kau memang sakit jantung kronik? Knapa ko tida pigi buat operation? Hantu B tanya.

"Ada buat! Tapi panjang ba cerita..." jawab Hantu A sayu.

"Ceritala sikit..Sambil-sambil lepak nih.."

"MaCam ini.. sia syak isteri sia main kayu tiga. So this one day, sia ingat mau perangkap dia. Sia pura-pura pigi karja tapi actually sia park kreta sana simpang hujung ruma. Tida lama, masuk satu kreta. "

"So, ko dapatla tangkap diorang?" tanya Hantu B penuh minat.

"Tida. Sia jumpa bini sia dalam bilik. Yang sia heran, masa sia masuk ruma tu, sia nampak ada kasut laki2. Sia pun lari-lari sekeliling ruma aku cari tu jantan. Abis sumua bilik sia cari pun... Last-last, sebab sia penat sia trus jatuh pengsan sebab heart attack. Trus sia mati la.." kata Hantu A mengakhiri ceritanya dengan kesedihan.

Hantu B terdiam mendengarkan cerita Hantu A.

Selepas beberapa ketika, Hantu B geleng2 kepala slow2 baru dia cakap

"Kenapa kau tida check tu aisbok? Kalau kau check tu mungkin kita dua masih hidup lagi." si hantu B bilang dengan sedih...

Haze, Haze Go Away... Drought, You too!

Kapit chronicles coming soon, once I'm done with preparing exam questions.

The haze is making me sick! Nothing is as depressing as having to breathe in a lungful of polluted air every time and tolerating the almost-melting-point heat. Drought means less or soon-to-be-gone water supply. Benci nya!
I feel so lethargic lately. All I want to do is curl up in bed and sleep (provided it's an air conditioned room, which my room is certainly not). Nak beli air cond, mesin basuh merosakkan diri so there flew my air cond dreams la...
The dry season is a fire hazard too. On my way to Sarikei yesterday I saw a large area of forest on fire. Even worse, it's peat soil. The kind of fire that's so degil. Saw some firemen on stand by there to prevent the fire from spreading to the new longhouse situated nearby.

Haze, haze go away,
You too, drought!

Preview: Kapit Chronicles

Just came back from Kapit. Still very tired. Updates soon, I hope.