I know that I must forgive those who wronged me...
Even if again and again they did it unto me...
Seventy times seven forgive them I must
Offer my other cheek should they slap one
Love thy enemies you've told me to
"Forgive them thee must", Thy told me
But Father,
This pain is getting unbearable
The urge to retaliate and sink low to their level is ever stronger
This burden too heavy to bear
But bear them I must if Thy tells me so
So Father
please give me the strength to carry this cross
Send Your Holy Spirit to comfort me
You always wipe my tears and gave me shelter
Do bless me with the ability to forgive
For forgiving is hard when the hurt is so deep
My flesh is weak and my spirit unwilling
So give me the strength to carry on
Dear Father
I leave it unto Your hands to do what You think is fit
For whatever was done to me is between them and You
For I must not judge, lest I'll be judged
Father,
I put my trust in You
Remember our favourite phrase?
"I put my trust in Him, I shall not be afraid. For what can a mere human do unto me"
-Psalm 56:11
I put my faith in that promise Father,
so strengthen me
and carry me
When I am most weak
Never forsake me
Thank you Father.
Amen
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The greatest betrayal happened today.
The Judas Kiss was given. Betrayal. Lies. Pain. Anger. Sadness. All mixed up inside me.
I don't know how a person from my home state, of my own race, could give me this ultimate betrayal of all. To cap it off, she didn't even have the guts to tell me and I only got to know it from others. It's not the covert thing she did that hurt me. It's the betrayal of trust and the lack of dignity to own it up. Hypocrites were never my favorite people to begin with. Traitors even more so. But I thank the Lord for there are still others who stood by me. Kate, my Muslim friends, Mum & Dad.
I broke up when I was talking to Mum & Dad. They told me to be strong, have faith and trust in God's plan. Not to retaliate but to seek God's strength and comfort. Thank you Lord for the gifts of family and friends (the real jewels) in my life. For in their words and encouragement, I find your voice.
*also Mum told me to keep away from that person. Not to bother with her anymore. because I am quite prone to violence so it is better to keep the distance, lest the Devil's whispers become actions. Thanks Mum & Dad. Love you lots.
** Another friend told me that sometimes I'm too kind. This is not the first but surely this is the ultimate betrayal this girl ever did to me. I don't know. When I care for others, I just take it in silence until the ultimate blow. Then only I learn my lesson. Am I too kind?
The Judas Kiss was given. Betrayal. Lies. Pain. Anger. Sadness. All mixed up inside me.
I don't know how a person from my home state, of my own race, could give me this ultimate betrayal of all. To cap it off, she didn't even have the guts to tell me and I only got to know it from others. It's not the covert thing she did that hurt me. It's the betrayal of trust and the lack of dignity to own it up. Hypocrites were never my favorite people to begin with. Traitors even more so. But I thank the Lord for there are still others who stood by me. Kate, my Muslim friends, Mum & Dad.
I broke up when I was talking to Mum & Dad. They told me to be strong, have faith and trust in God's plan. Not to retaliate but to seek God's strength and comfort. Thank you Lord for the gifts of family and friends (the real jewels) in my life. For in their words and encouragement, I find your voice.
*also Mum told me to keep away from that person. Not to bother with her anymore. because I am quite prone to violence so it is better to keep the distance, lest the Devil's whispers become actions. Thanks Mum & Dad. Love you lots.
** Another friend told me that sometimes I'm too kind. This is not the first but surely this is the ultimate betrayal this girl ever did to me. I don't know. When I care for others, I just take it in silence until the ultimate blow. Then only I learn my lesson. Am I too kind?
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