Aku Seorang Guru

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Aku seorang guru, bukan seorang kerani admin.
Aku seorang guru, bukan seorang kerani akaun.
Aku seorang guru, bukan seorang despatch.
Aku seorang guru, bukan seorang technician.
Aku seorang guru, bukan seorang bibik.
Aku seorang guru, aku ingin mendidik.
Aku seorang guru,
tempat ku bersama pelajar
bukannya ditemani fail-fail yang menimbun
kertas keliling pinggang
membukit hingga ke leher
Sesak
Rimas
Panas...
Aku ni cikgu woi!
~ Chris 140409~

I am currently swamped with 'homework'. Huh? Ya, teachers have homework too. In fact our homework lagi banyak than the students. Ini lah, itu lah... The list seems to be endless and this means it takes me further away from my core business which is teaching. I hate that. I am forced to do something that I don't enjoy (If I enjoyed paperwork, I'd stay working in the hotel line, okay?). Teaching IS my passion and being forced to focus on other things, it SUCKS! BIG TIME!

Sometimes I wonder if we are shortchanging our kids/students. Ya lah, supposed to be focused to teach and help them learn, but all this extras are taking a big chunk of our precious time. Although from my observation, there are those who seemed to be VERY relaxed and serene because... THEY DON'T CARE and they are afflicted with the M-illness. (Dear God, please NEVER let me become one of them. Amen.)

Oh Aba, why did you brought me up to be a perfectionist? I can never say "cincai jak lah". I can never do a half-assed work. Every success is measured against an ever increasing scale. I can never satisfy me. *sigh*

I'm rambling somehow. I know.

Debate season is here (sharpen claws once more). Also the trainer for Projek Gemilang for Debate (year-long programme).
Going for a meeting in Sibu next week. Staying at RH (again).
Will spend 3 days (full of agony) as examiner for the speaking test. Mental note to self: sediakan minyak cap kapak, minyak wangi, air freshener, pisau, kapak, chainsaw and candies.

p/s: My friend is allowed to return home today. Thank God for the smooth surgery. She will be resting at home for the week.